Unhappiness

Ok...I'm unhappy! I'm unhappy about almost everything.

I had a manicure yesterday - the first time in months and as I looked at my hands I realized that I had really let myself go downhill. It's not just the physical - although - it's a major part of it. My feet look awful, my clothes, while getting looser/bigger don't look neat on me, my breathing is off just from climbing the stairs (maybe because I don't have any heat in my freakin' house) and just in general - I'm unhappy.

Well, I have to really concern myself with the things I have some control over - ME. It's not my fault I have no heat (my Landlord's an asshole).

I have to fully realize that I am where I am because of the decisions I made or didn't make. No one can change that.

I often get so worked up in the aspect of not hurting other people that I end up hurting myself and right about now - I'm in a lot of unnecessary pain.

A few months ago, I bought a candle - it said "The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step" This is true but that first step is always the hardest one. It reminds me of the Christmas special in which they sing "Put one foot in front of the other and soon you'll be walking out the door".

So...it's time to walk out the door. Follow me and see where it leads. The road to happiness begins with one step.

New Day...new mix

The ever increasing and growing walking playlist for my walks: Rob Zombie - Dragula, Drowning Pool - Bodies, U2 - Vertigo, Jay-Z and Linkin Park - Encore, Jay-Z - money ain't a thing, Isley Brothers - Fight the Power and the Pride, Madonna - Vogue and Dirty Vegas - Days Go By.

Adaptability

I ain't got it. It's going on Day Five of no heat in our home. I'm already cold natured so this just adds to my frustration. I am relegated to the bedroom in a makeshift situation.

I don't feel like much of anything today.

I did some sit ups today and last night and I walked my building today - not much but at least something.

The rooms in the house with our space heaters aren't bad but one feels a bit stuck in this room and can't wait until the damn thing is fixed.

The difference

I love sweet, "she" loves salty. I love bread, "she" doesn't care for it.

This determines the path of our separate diets. I'm a low carber and I love it. Splenda is my new best friend - I make peanut butter cookies, wicked hot chocolate, mascarpone and splenda with a bit of meyer lemon juice - good eating.

I can eat meats (which I love), veggies, cheese, butter, chocolate (yes, chocolate), peanut butter (and I can even mix chocolate and peanut butter), nuts, eggs and even low carb energy bars. YUM!!!

I admit that I am NOT as disclipined as I should be but I refuse to be hard on myself - I will just continue to work towards the goal.

I think that bellydance, which I am taking, will be good for me. It gives my hips and abs a great workout.

Although, today I really don't feel up to anything so I'm just frittering the day away in the family room, trying to stay warm and trying to keep myself motivated.

So onward and upward.

Welcome to Walk it out, Girl

Good Morning! It's me and I'm back!

I must admit that this (walking) isn't my thing. It is an interest that my partner sparked in me on her path to health.

I'm a pretty healthy woman - strong, vibrant and normally full of energy. My only issue is sinus ones - and I just can't seem to shake it - even with the aid of an Allergist.

So...my partner decides to walk a 5K marathon and I decided to support her (as I always do) and walk with her.

We headed to Big Peach Running Co. to have our feet fitted for shoes. What a journey. Normally I get the royal treatment everywhere we go but not this time. My partner was treated like a serious walker and I was treated like the "bothersome, tag along, cute partner, who had no clue". I'm still not sure what is "wrong" with my foot but I do know that I wear an 11 (women) and 9 (men) - which was a total surprise. I wear a dress shoe size 9.5/10 so I was a little shocked at her findings but got the shoe just the same. Here is...Shoes and Gear Video Runner's World. Well, my partner is a little "salty" this morning because I have THE running shoe of the season. :p

I already had a really nice winter running shirt from Nike, a red Danskin pullover and warm bottoms. I added my shoes and my red iPod and we were off to walk. Our first walk, I really failed miserably. I started off at a good pace but my feet began hurting - in the exact areas where I was told I bore my weight. Discouraged, I turned away and slowly walked back to the Jeep. I was so very happy at the progress my partner made - trust me...if you had seen her just two short years ago and saw her now, you'd swear it was two different people. So KUDOs to her!

So enough of her...here's some things about me: I love to read, I love to shop (much to my partner's dismay...but I wish she would really get over it...it is who I am), I love THINGS and STUFF, I love good food, good wine, I love cooking, I love the Internet, I love music, I love coffee, I love tea, I love to write, I love myself - in the most aesthetic way, I love cold weather (but only if my HVAC is working - totally different blog) and I love the sacred and the profane (yes, another blog as well).

I am committed to working out - just like my partner. I'm down 20 pounds - I need to lose 30 more so please join me on my journey on healthy living.

Namaste!!