Unhappiness

Ok...I'm unhappy! I'm unhappy about almost everything.

I had a manicure yesterday - the first time in months and as I looked at my hands I realized that I had really let myself go downhill. It's not just the physical - although - it's a major part of it. My feet look awful, my clothes, while getting looser/bigger don't look neat on me, my breathing is off just from climbing the stairs (maybe because I don't have any heat in my freakin' house) and just in general - I'm unhappy.

Well, I have to really concern myself with the things I have some control over - ME. It's not my fault I have no heat (my Landlord's an asshole).

I have to fully realize that I am where I am because of the decisions I made or didn't make. No one can change that.

I often get so worked up in the aspect of not hurting other people that I end up hurting myself and right about now - I'm in a lot of unnecessary pain.

A few months ago, I bought a candle - it said "The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step" This is true but that first step is always the hardest one. It reminds me of the Christmas special in which they sing "Put one foot in front of the other and soon you'll be walking out the door".

So...it's time to walk out the door. Follow me and see where it leads. The road to happiness begins with one step.