Monday, April 27, 2009

I will learn to change

If I feel depressed, I will learn to cheer up.
If I feel sad, I will learn to laugh.
If I feel ill, I will learn to be healthy.
If I feel fear, I will learn to plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior, I will learn to lookup to myself.
If I feel uncertain, I will learn to raise my voice.
If I feel poverty, I will learn to think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent, I will learn to think of my past success.
If I feel insignificant, I will learn to remember my goals.

I will learn to be the master of my emotions.

I will learn to change.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Walking as meditation

I had a full evening last night but I was willing to walk. I didn't walk as far as I normally do but that is not the point. The point is to get moving and I did just that. I worked a bit late and had a few stops to make. It was late, dark even but I still managed our block and a little further.

The night air was crisp and there were a few people out and about. A frog, the unsettling leaves rustling, street lamps lit and a few cars buzzing by. I have taken yoga for awhile and I began to recall the principles of yoga - when an area is in pain or discomfort - breathe into that area. The ball of foot has been hurting and my right hip has tightened (I know this is due to my inactive body revolting and becoming active). Instead of fighting the discomfort, I surrendered to it. Slowly breathing into those areas as I slowed my pace.

I'm a very competitive person (think Joan Crawford when swimming with her daughter: "You'll never beat me. I'm older and bigger than you") and in this respect I am always pushing myself to do better, go faster, do it harder.

Last night, I slowed my pace. There was no time limit, no one to impress or beat. All I needed to do was get moving - no matter the pace of the distance - just get moving.

I was reading my email this morninga dn this was one of my daily meditations - how appropriate.

http://www.meditationsforwomen.com/dailys/521599.html

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Get "wit" the program

"Being willing makes you able." ~Rhonda Britten

Years ago, when the Steve Winwood song "Roll with me baby" was big, I was a young and vibrant woman. My mantra was "Roll with me or get rolled over." I didn't mean it in a mean way - it was just a "warning" for those to get with the program (whatever the program was) or get left behind.

I realize that I need to finish things. I need to roll with it or get out of the way. My sense of "fear" is that of commitment - the just do its of the world. My word for the month is willingness. Willingness is really nothing more than commitment. It is all about making a decision and sticking with it (as is most of the things in our lives). Now that I realize the need to make a decision and stick with it - I have to understand that my commitment is to my decision or goal or vision.

The big step in understanding this commitment to my vision is also realizing that I need to fall in love with my goal. Visualizing and feeling that this goal is extremely important. Nurturing (something I do, oh but too well).

Why is nurturing my goal so important? It is (for me) because I need a big enough "Why" to keep you motivated and willing to do what is required to get me to my success. I realize that I don't particularly do well with focusing on the steps to success. I'm outcome oriented.

As you all know I set a similar goal for exercise as my partner did. I am never excited about exercising (or anything other than shopping tobe honest). Quite frankly, I am hot and cold when it comes to exercising. But if I associated my exercise routine with a goal - that does give me a bit more motivation to do what I need to do in order to get there. As of yesterday, I had absolutely no goal or rather I had a goal to just finish the walk - which is a good thing but one should always have an expected outcome (even if it does change). I am typically motived by fear, embarassment or as a close friend of mine says, guilt (I do love how he says to "oh look, free guilt/someone left some guilt, I'll take it"). Not good motivators at all.

Willingness is key and willingness leads to action. Action AFTER visioning is what leads to results. There is one more point I want to mention regarding willingness. And this is a bit more serious. Establishing a commitment to my vision will perhaps make me willing to confront other issues that are blocking my success. I think the majority of us are sick - mentally, emotionally and spiritually because we have deep seated issues that need addressing. We (and I am included) seek to fix the SYMPTOM instead of the actual root of the problem. I remember when my partner had carpal tunnel syndrome. All the doctors attempted to get her through the pain - I opted to get to the root of her issue and deal with that (and I am happy to say - she's doing well).

So during my journey of realizing and awareness - I plan to dig deep and allow this "program" to assist me in peeling away at the layers to get to the root of things. What I am committing to is being healthy and happy and perhaps an even more beautiful body.

I've done some healing work and still am. It's painful but I know that it will be beneficial in the long run. Willingness - this one quality alone will lead to great manifestations in your life. I really believe this.

So there you have it (from me). Commit to the vision. See and feel the success of it. Be willing to take action toward your goal.

My Inspirational Wellness Affirmation: I have a willingness to change - ooooh that's rough - even for me.